I ask for balance play,
Between these polarities:
Personal and Transpersonal
Joy and Discipline.
Speaking and Silence.
And I pray for a path to open to explore silence in its fullness. To explore the transpersonal in its fullness. And discipline in its fullness. I think Vipassana offers all three. But I also invite dis-illusionment: please enlighten me if there are other paths.
To this moon, I release what I have already tried to release before: any sense of duty towards external expectations that are not aligned with my own values. I’ve been having dreams about brotherly betrayal recently. Memories come up: my peers brought me down because I stood proud, but it didn’t match their vision of what someone should be proud of. Memories of being made fun of my sincerity or my sensitivity. I call back that sincerity and sensitivity and promise to cherish you and not take those external vituperations personally. I can contain you. I can contain them.
Beyond Mountains, More Mountains 